Friday, April 19, 2013

Why oh why do I neglect you?

Because I can I guess. I stopped coming to update this blog because it became too much. I haven't had the time to sit down and get my mind cleared and write. I guess you can say life with a 4 year old, a 3 year old, and an 18 month old has overwhelmed me. And in saying that, it would probably be an understatement. Oh, shoot me. I feel like I'm asking too much by asking people to read this because I have proven to be a horrible host. So, my apologies. 

I think I've already written this once. Actually, I know I have. The problem with the last one was life caught up to me right after I wrote it :( Not that any of this so much excuses my neglect of a blog I've worked pretty hard to get up and going, but I do want to give you all a run down of what has happened in the months since I've written.

My friends and my family know that the biggest issue in my life has been my relationship with my mother and that is something that evidently just is not going to be worked out at the moment. I tried and once again she let me down. So moving on from that, and onto the next thing...Death. Its been all around me lately. Actually the last 7 years of my life have been jam packed with more death than births which is a pretty big deal considering all the babies in my life and in my family. I don't want to pull this entry down too much and get into all of the sadness, but I recently lost my aunt, who was the closest thing to an angel that I've ever met in my life. She was a wonderfully amazing person who was way too young to die. She has three beautiful grandchildren who are devastated by her passing, and her parents have now lost both of their children which is just... unnatural. I also had a cousin pass away and his death was...extreme and completely unexpected. It happened just a few days before Christmas and it was just horrible. I hate to sit back and watch so much pain just wrap itself around my family. It is completely heartbreaking.

On a somewhat lighter note we've been sick. We are not a sick family, at all. You know how you have those families where someone is ALWAYS sick? Well... we are the opposite of that family. (Don't you hate us?!) I blame it on the fact that we never get out and do very much, therefore we aren't exposed to many other germs. 

Anyway, we have had it all. That horrible stomach virus where everyone is miserable and sitting on the toilet and holding a trash can at the same time (aka mommy is holding the kids over the toilet while holding a trash can in front of them.) Yep... had it. Sinus infections, the flu, sore throat... its all been here. We moved to a new house (yay! no more apartment life!) and since day one pretty much, we've been cleaning and disinfected the place hoping to get a warm inviting vibe going on and get rid of the vomit stench. Like I honestly feel like if a stranger were to come in they might think we are just disgusting people and don't mind the smell. I don't smell anything but I have a huge fear that it might just be because I've grown used to the smell! You know how everyone's house has its own smell.... but you don't smell your house? Well, what if the "smell" my house has is... vomit and sickness??!?!? Horrifying huh?

My biggest little is all registered for kindergarten in the fall and of course I freak out momentarily every single day. With all of the sick bullshit that goes on the world today, I really don't look down on people who homeschool at all. Like at this point, it seems like a great idea. We don't even live 5 minutes from the school but that won't spare me any worry, I can assure you of that. 

The other two kids are just hanging out, steadily growing. The littlest is a cute little tot now instead of just a wrinkly little infant :) Can I just be a horrible mom for a minute and say he is just the easiest, best "baby" of the three?! Shake your head all you want, but I'm pretty sure all moms with more than one child can remember exact which was the "easiest." My oldest was like a teenager as soon as he was born. He was just already so tall and grown and didn't sleep at night, but slept ALL day. He was tons of fun, but boy was it a lot crazier than I thought it would be! He also didn't want to talk until well after he turned two which was just a problem all in its own. Thankfully there were no issues there, he just didn't want to talk. Ha! His sister was a chronic titty baby. Can I say that? I think it probably describes her pretty well. She came out ready to immediately have a boob in her mouth. Graphic, but I'm serious. She moved her head all around my chest immediately and just opened her mouth and went to town. I was blessed, but by the time she had teeth and STILL didn't want to give it up, it was pretty rough. She wouldn't ever take a bottle of pumped milk either, and wouldn't take formula, of course. 

So now I have my easy going man. He's so fun, he's hilarious, and he's gorgeous of course. He talks, a lot, especially for 19 months. I try not to "brag" too much about my kids because no one likes moms who turn their kid's accomplishments into a way to be a bitch, and thats how I feel like I come off when I brag. But yeah... he's really smart. He crawled super early, walked with no problem, talks now, does all the smart stuff like knowing his colors and counting, going to get things for me when I tell him to... all that cool stuff. I hope it carries on into potty training. I might even start bragging then because from what I can tell, a lot of people have major issues in that area.

I think that pretty much sums it all up. Aside from that I've just had the normal adult/parent issues. I started working some outside of the house, cleaning and organizing for a few people, nothing too big. I'm also operating a clothing shop on eBay and Instagram where I sell the kid's used clothes, plus some women's stuff and some vintage stuff. Shameless plug here:

I pretty much kept my distance from everyone and everything, not just this blog. I deleted one major entry on this blog, and that was the video of the bangs tutorial and that was because of the ridiculous comments about my daughter's bratty tantrum. I didn't make that video to be some massive viral hit. I made it for my ah... 10 followers at the time, 3 or 4 of those who had asked me to make it. I said in the video and in the description that my daughter was LAYING in front of me throwing a tantrum because I wouldn't let her cut her hair with the scissors. I lived in a small "mill village" house and was literally sitting there looking at her doing it but she didn't start it until I was mid snip and I couldn't very well start over on my hair since I had already cut it. So I stopped and got her to sit down in front of me and watch and started recording it and she started the tantrum again. Like I said, it was for my FEW followers, not the 5,000 views it got immediately after I put it up. 

Anyway, I'm glad everyone has liked the Chelsea Houska hair tutorial, and maybe I'll do some more at another time. Sorry I neglected to answer some of the comments. I see them now but its literally the first time I've logged on in months!

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