Friday, April 22, 2011

18 weeks.... almost to the half way mark!

18 weeks, 3 days
Due date: September 22nd, but my c section will be scheduled a week before

Starting weight: 130

Current weight: 142

Baby gender: boy!

Baby name: Undecided! Baby Boy Marlow for now!

Craving: Nothing specific really. Occasionally Cesar salads. Thats about it.

Pregnancy peeve: Vivid dreams! They're really getting to me nowadays!

This pregnancy is a little different on me than the other two have been. I was only 19 when I got pregnant with my son and everything was fun and cool and different and I just loved sitting around eating all the time. I stayed miserable with morning sickness throughout the pregnancy so I didn't really gain a WHOLE lotta weight. Well okay really, I was 108 when I got pregnant and I was 150 when I had him so i gained a lot, BUT i needed it and it actually looked fairly good on me afterwards.

I didn't work out to lose my weight that time. I didn't breastfeed the whole time, I didn't have some huge secret as to how I lost the weight. I did some pretty extreme diets here and there but only for a few weeks at a time, and by his first birthday I was 120 lbs and looking good.

Then baby #2. I was right at 130 when I got pregnant.... 170 when I had her.

That weight.... it didn't fall off so easy. I really had to work on that. I had another c section, but I nursed #2 so I lost about 30 of it pretty quick, but the rest... it just didnt wanna come off. I had to work out daily, and hardcore at that, do some Weight Watchers, along with some other dieting. I finally got back down to 130 but I was still different.

Pregnancy has changed my body so much.
It has opened up a world of insecurities I never thought I'd have.
I try to take care of myself while I'm expecting.... I make the best of it because its worth it.... but myself esteem has just been shattered by it. My entire body has changed and it seems like no matter what I do, I'll never be the same. 

I'm working out throughout this entire pregnancy, no matter what. I'm not sure whether I'll breastfeed again or not, but I know for sure I am immediately jumping on getting my old body back. I don't want it for a vain reason. I want it for me. I am so proud of my kids and as long as I have them I'll be happy even if I weigh 180 lbs. But it would just be nice to look in the mirror and be happy with my body. 

I know the "fatness" is coming.

I'm not looking forward to it.

Shake your head, think badly of me, but I'm NOT one of those women who LOVE being pregnant. I love the outcome, but pregnancy really gets to me. I haven't had postpartum depression, but I've been extremely depressed throughout my second pregnancy and this one. 

I'm working through it, and hopefully as I continue to update this blog with "belly pictures" I won't get too gigantic. We'll SEE!

Thursday, April 14, 2011

Recipe for some yummy Cheesy Loaded Baked Potato Soup!

I'm always trying out new recipes
and messing around in the kitchen coming up with new meals
so here's a yummy easy cheesy potato soup recipe.
I did of course work at O'Charley's for some time... So you might say they
inspired this a bit haha.

 About 5 medium sized red potatoes, cut in long slices, un-peeled! 
3 medium sized baking potatoes
1/4 cup margarine, melted
1/4 cup flour (more or less depending on desired thickness)
4 cups half-and-half
2 cups milk
16 ounces Velveeta cheese, melted
Garlic powder
Desired amount of bacon crumbles fried for topping (or bacon bits if you choose!)
Cheddar cheese (for topping as well)
1/2 cup fresh chives
1/2 cup fresh parsley

Dice potatoes (leaving red potatoes peeled, but go ahead and remove the peel off the baking potatoes) and 
cover in water, bringing to a boil.
Continue to boil for about 15 mins or until the potatoes are tender to your liking.
While potatoes are boiling,
melt margarine and slowly add flour.
Mix until smooth and place heat on low.
Gradually add half and half and milk stirring constantly (I used a whisk)
until smooth and begins to thicken up.

Melt Velveeta and add it to the creamy mixture.
Stir VERY well. 
Drain potatoes and pour potatoes into mix.
Continue to cook the mixture for about 30 mins on low heat.

Add cheese, bacon, parsley, and chives
AFTER placed into bowls.
Just a hint:
Add cheese first, and bacon on top.

Friday, April 8, 2011

Hair.... a tribute? A log...? Progression? hmmm.

My hair and I have a love/hate relationship.
I love it, but I hate dealing with it.
Everyone ELSE loves it short, I hate it.
I LOVE it long, but hate waiting on it to get there.
Three pregnancies have been tough on my hair.
Probably harder on it than my body.
I chopped off my waist length hair in '08...
and I've been wishing it back ever since.
Here's the long journey,
starting with before I ever cut it, and then...the cut (boo!)

So pretty, so healthy.... and ugh... check out my BOD! =]

early '08

^^^^ April 2009

^^^ May 09

Finally, a little progression!
This was in the summer of 2010...

and now here we are almost in summer of 2011....and not much is happening. Which is sad.
I intentionally wore the same shirt to do a one year side by side. =/


Thursday, April 7, 2011

Mommys been BUSY!

Wow! The past couple of weeks have been jam packed, one thing after the other. 
My love has been on a new work schedule and its been an adjustment for us
as he's not getting home until later in the evening,
but he's still leaving at the same time in the mornings.
It also means more days off (the hours come up to 40 after just 4 days, so he's off for 3 following).
The kids love it, and I love spending the time with him,
but boy oh boy do those kids act NUTS when he's home.
It completely throws our schedule off track.
Making for one FRAZZLED mama!

Aside from that....
Baby Marlow #3 is.....


We are pretty freakin psyched! Especially Daddy! He was determined we were
gonna keep going until he got him another boy!
Now to decide on decor.
He's gonna have to share a room with little sister since Brother is about to be 3 
and he's just a little too wild to share a room with a newborn!
Plus GL is on an AWESOME sleep schedule.
I'm thinking something like this as far as set up goes since I
want to keep GL in her crib as long as possible...

I love it!
Any of you ladies have an ideas for mixed decor?
Gracie's stuff is all girly, all pink, all princess,
and she deserves that but I think half the room can be PRINCE! =]
As for Mommy....
here's the current baby bump at 16 weeks...

And Mama has seriously been busy!
My two closet friends from way back in the 
baby and kindergarten days are going through some big changes as well!
#1 here is having her first baby....
sweet Cooper,
and we showered her this past weekend.

and then Steph here is getting married and as her maid of honor I'm totally freaking 
out for her wedding! =]
This is the wedding party  (and our babies)
at the dress fitting.

And as for my monsters...
we've been trying to get out and enjoy this beautiful weather that has become
so rare in Georgia.
We took sweet Bal Bal flying
with my mom's fiancee as the pilot.
Not so sure what he was thinking about it.
He didn't cry.... just seemed a little freaked out when he looked down 
and realized there wasn't a ground below us lol.

Future pilot there maybe?
Oh and Gracie... she was completely satisfied playing in the castle at the park..
heres to hoping this week may be a little more....

Friday, April 1, 2011

I'm not fat, I'm pregnant!!!

Anyone else stuck here?

I'm only 15 weeks preg, but with my third baby so of course I'm getting a little bump a bit earlier than usual,
but not enough that I don't just look a bit... chubby.
My usual size 6 Hollisters were getting a bit tight so I went ahead
and did what I was so hesitant to do with the previous pregnancies
and I bought some maternity pants.
Not just any maternity pants though,
these lovely Old Navy super skinny maternity jeans.

Oh yeah, full panel baby.
Wasnt so sure about them at first, but every time I put them on, I love em just a bit more.
Plus staying in my size 6 put a huge smile on me, especially finding they were still pretty loose.
Also picked up a few super comfy shirts...

Love them!
So I'm truly working on embracing pregnancy this time around
and completely plan on getting some cutesy maternity stuff...

My inspo's so far....

(I can't do a maternity post without having Nicole Richie, my icon for life!)

I lived in these summer dresses with both of my babies!

Love this super fitted one... great for my long summer i have waiting...

so great for this crappy Georgia weather were having right now.

any thoughts ladies?